But those who wait on the Lord,
Shall RENEW their STRENGTH;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall Run and NOT be Weary,
They shall Walk and NOT Faint!
- Isaiah 40:31 (NKJV)
Do you ever get tired of your BSS? I am!! This awareness of my Body, Soul and Spirit is NOT new!! In fact, this has been a consistent topic of consideration for most of my life. I admit that in my early years, or "back in the day" when I was young in the Lord as well as my body; I did not think much on this Powerful Connection. My body was in shape, I thought I practiced good self-control, and I thought I had good understanding in the ways of God...THOUGHT being the key! 22 years ago, however, I began a journey of realization, reality, and revelation!! It all began when I gave my heart to my Beloved, who happens to be a Master Fitness Coach/Nutrition Expert. This is a man who fully understands how to consistently operate with a High Level of Commitment, Courage, and Choice!! His level of understanding about the Body, Soul, Spirit Connection challenged my complacency; and offered an opportunity for me to get real!! It really wasn't until after our second daughter was born, however, that things became personal!!
Shortly after her triumphant arrival, I began noticing a change in my body. No longer could I consume large quantities of French Fries without gaining weight. Likewise, once I had added pounds, it became Much more difficult to loose them! That was nearly 20 years ago, and things went from bad to worse in regards to my Body. To add perspective, I weighed 89 lbs when I was 5 months pregnant with our first daughter, and today I weigh in at 160 + or -.
Needless to say, I have grown weary in my Body!! As I continue to wonder who is the Large Woman in any photo of me, I have become the "Queen of Denial"!! I have in-turn focused much of the past several years on my Spirit - strengthening and building my relationship with God, as well as addressing my Soul - emotions, mind and will. I began spending time in God's word and studying under Wise Counsel about what God has to say in these two areas of my life; and as a result, have gained wisdom and understanding! I have corrected some wrong thinking about my "heart condition" and have been able to align with God's word on Authority - Controlling my Emotions rather than Them controlling me!! I have invested time in putting God's word in me, so that the overflow of my heart would bear good fruit. All of this has served me and is Good, however without clearly heading the connection between Body, Soul and Spirit; I am clear that I cannot walk in the Fullness of God's Best for me and my life! Darn-it!! I had so hoped that as I strengthened my Soul and Spirit, my Body would somehow automatically follow - that I would wake one day without an addiction to sugar, that I would be filled with super-natural vitality, that pounds would easily fall off...this thinking proves my status as "Queen of Denial"!!
This May, I will be 40 years old; and lately, God has been profoundly dealing with me about my Body! I began to see in reality rather than delusion. I began to notice the fatigue, weird cycles, tighter fitting clothes. As I open my heart to "Hear" what God says about our bodies, I am immediately drawn to 1 Corinthians 6:19 - "Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are Not your own?" So, either I believe that God IS or I don't; and given that I do...I feel empowered to step into a new season where I allow the Holy Spirit who is in me to move through me and heal my body!! I declare today that I AM the one to break the generational curse of Obesity, High Blood Pressure, Diabetes, and Cancer in my family! I choose to honor God by reforming my body as His temple! I recognize the Urgent Need to make new choices so that I may be an example of Isaiah 40:31.
This year, my husband and I have stepped into Destiny; and as Youth Ministers, I feel an added opportunity to practice what we preach!! I have been convicted in calling our Youth to Rise Up, Dive In, and BE a Doer of the Word not only a Hearer! THIS is my moment to join them in taking on a new level of commitment! There can be NO more Excuses!! I invite you to join me on this journey to better balance in my BSS, and ask that you hold me accountable!! I know God loves me, because He gave me an added measure of support in my Beloved, and I am in gratitude for new seasons!! I am excited to walk in the Peace of Surrender, and look forward to the challenge of Laying down my will so His can be done!! To God be the Glory!!